Mentemosomnic Moment 3

(From Songs for a New World)

There's a couple of things I've learned
On the many roads I've taken
Flames are not what get you burned
It's the cold and the ice
Here's a piece of advice
I got from a little bird
The flames can get you
Stirred
It's the cold that leaves you shaken

I don't like to philosophize
I just want to tell a story
Always leave when a woman cries
Never look in a woman's eyes
You'll get stuck with a high and rising fever
And then you can't leave her
Please, don't wait man
It's almost too late man

She cries and you want to hold her
She lies and you want to run away
But just give her a minute
I promise you're in it to stay
She smiles and you'll stay forever
She screams
Well, that's the price you pay
But there's no one can make you
Forget how you feel
For all she can take
You've got more there to steal
So you don't mind a bit of surprise
And she cries

I don't like to admit I'm wrong
I believe in guts and glory
But it's time I should change my song
I've been here just a bit too long
Always thought I was much too strong for hating
And still I keep waiting...
And while I'm resolving
That door keeps revolving

She cries and you want to hold her
She lies and you're half way out the door
But you never can do it
She'll make you go through it once more
She smiles and you'll stay forever
She sings
Oh, she's got you now for sure
And each time that you swear
That you will not give in
She'll throw you a stare
That'll show you can't win
It's amazing how hard each man tries
But she cries

All of a sudden
You fall for her charms
You promise you'll stop all her tears
All of sudden
She's back in your arms
And the walls start closing
And blocking out the light
And changing all your dreams
And right before your eyes

She cries
And I don't know the answer
She spies
And there's no place I can hide
When I look in the mirror,
There's nothing but fear here inside
I run
And still she is right behind me
I fall
The chasm is too wide
So I'm stuck in this world of her magic mystique
Where I'll never be more than her toy of the week
But each time I prepare my goodbyes
Well, she catches me looking
And she opens the floodgates
And she cries
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This will be a nightly thing, I'm sure of it. But would I give it up? Of course not.

Couple of pointers to make a true mentemosomniac post (feelings version only)

a) The room must be completely dark, save the computer screen that lights up your face.
b) You must not make the post right away. It takes no less than a period of five to seven minutes to accept that you have to write.
c) Music is optional, although it can help to fuel your thoughts. Always use headphones though.
d) Conversation with whoever you're writing about has to have happened within a half hour of writing the post. Otherwise, you're just faking it.
e) You more than likely already have been planning the post in your head as you toss and turn, so just write whatever comes to your head first. It's probably right.
f) Mentemosomniac posts can be either good or bad. They are necessary to clear your head.
g) Finally, you must go to bed right away after writing. You've drained the thoughts. Don't get caught up in something else.

I'm hoping all of these help. God knows that I don't need it.

Oh yes. And things have balanced out the crap from a few days ago. In spades. College is gonna be a hell of a trip.

I can't wait.